Why I’ve Repainted My House 3 Times

Because I’m crazy.

Just kidding… kind of.

I mean, I might be a little crazy because why in the world would someone repaint their house this many times? But honestly, I think it’s more because I’m really trying to figure out who I am as a person.

I’ve realized that I genuinely like a lot of things. Colors, styles, aesthetics, ideas — I love so many different things. But when it comes to actually putting them together, sometimes I step back and look at it all and think, “What in the hot messy pile of WTF is this?”

For example, I love the color pink. Like truly love it. It’s probably my favorite color. But when I’m scrolling Pinterest and saving inspiration for how I want my house to look, it’s not bright pink or even pastel pink rooms that I’m drawn to.

It’s mauves. Deep browns. Moody jewel tones. Dark earthy colors that feel cozy and dramatic at the same time.

Somewhere along the way I realized… that might actually be my house personality.

Which probably explains why some of my walls have been painted two or three times at this point. I’m basically discovering my design personality in real time — one repaint at a time.

Things I Thought Adult Life Would Be Like vs Reality

When I was a kid, I thought adult life looked amazing.

Mostly because adults could do whatever they wanted.

I felt like I had so many rules growing up (even though, realistically, I probably didn’t). But I remember thinking adults had the ultimate freedom. They could eat candy whenever they wanted. Stay up late. Buy whatever they wanted.

No one telling them no.

Little did I know that adulthood also comes with things like diabetes, gaining weight, responsibilities, bills, and the sudden realization that if you eat candy all day you will absolutely feel terrible.

But you know… kids don’t think about that part.

So maybe repainting my entire house is just my weird adult version of exercising that freedom.

Because technically I can repaint every room if I want to.

Even if it’s slightly unhinged.

Maybe This Is Just Part of Growing Up

I do think people change over time.

We evolve. We shed old versions of ourselves and grow into new ones. Sometimes slowly, sometimes all at once.

Maybe that’s why I keep repainting things. Maybe I’m trying to build a space that actually reflects the version of me that exists right now.

Or maybe this is just my Scorpio energy showing.

I’ve always loved the idea of the phoenix — burning everything down and rebuilding something new from the ashes.

Which might explain why I keep starting this blog over again after months of neglect. Apparently my life comes in cycles of disappearing and then reappearing with a new idea.

So here we are again.

Anyway, that’s today’s brain dump. Tomorrow I’ll probably talk about something completely different because my brain has about 37 other thoughts waiting in line.